Happy thoughts.

What is your happy thought?

Something which drifts you away from reality as it is today. Something which you knew was going down your history as an exceptional moment, even as it was happening. Something you'll go back to relive.

But the issue is that whatever follows doesn't size up to that moment you've had. There is nothing to do but to climb down once you've scaled the peak. You hit the peak, savor the success and head down, and in a few minutes or hours, you are back to where you started from.

My pranic healing teacher asked us to think of happy thoughts even as we were in the middle of a session which required us to concentrate, and my head was suddenly filled with a void. What was my happy thought? I haven't rated and slotted any of my life's happenings but the idea that I do not have one was at that moment disappointing and disparaging. At that moment when I was supposed to be focussing, I was - focussing my mind's energies into finding a happy thought.

When I finally did find one thought to revel upon, I realized that my mental inhibitions were all this while preventing me from accepting it. It still is. Going back to my philosophy, a plateau after happiness is fine, but a trough is hard to take. Does it qualify? I don't think so.

I have added this task to my list of to-dos for the year. Find a happy thought. That one event which stands out, which makes the other events in life look small. Sedate and staid will just not do. If there is not one, I should perhaps make one.

Like Calvin says, "Happiness is not good enough for me, I demand euphoria".